Conflicted
Bought almost everything for prom already . Except for the clutch ... :(
But ... I spent more then 200 bucks already(counting in the accrued stuff and blah blah blah) .
I really bought the two pairs of heels in the end !
Just very thankful that I have a wonderful God and mummy to provide me . Not forgetting my father .
Anyway , I must be like the happiest girl on earth now because I am so carefree everyday and I am able to spend time with the people I love !
Ha ha ha and mummy kept saying the bee is chubby but she always cook SO MUCH for him .
When I ask her why , she says it's because bee is a termite-cum-vacuum cleaner . She's super nice to bee , makes me jealous ;) hee hee , not really la , I am happy ^^ )
Just don't want to think about O levels anymore and enjoy life now . I'd already handed everything to God , so I am not worried a single bit . He will have plans for me :D
Oh oh , think I am eating too much , gained weight !
No more 45kg++ already :( Never mind , I lose weight very easily ^^
Nicole calls me a walking skeleton .
Ha ha , she was so shocked to see me try on my dress because she claimed that my shoulder blades , collar bone etc etc are protruding out ....
Not really , I like it that way . Honestly , I think that it's impossible for me to have eating disorder because I LOVE to eat !
Plus I never ever skip meals , except for a few occasions I forgot to eat dinner . I really forgot ! I'd never ever thought of making myself vomit after meals , except once when I ate meat that is not fresh and my stomach was real uncomfortable .
Also , I think that I am skinny enough , I don't find myself fat , I just want to be a little lighter :)
The only extreme things I'd ever did to make myself lighter was to drink expired milk ... But I was feeling very bloated so I really needed to get things out of my system .
Somehow my mum is really supportive of me trying to control my own weight ! (Except when I really got too skinny during the June holidays she kinda told me that being too skinny isn't a good thing . I was 1.61m tall , 45 kg heavy. Nicole claimed that that's severely underweight. L-O-L . Well , I fell SUPER sick that time ! Try vomiting 9 times in a day)
Even though mummy keeps telling me I'm chubby , I know that she's just trying to make me control myself :)
The point of this post is not to discuss about my weight .
Just trying to tell people who wants to lose weight , please have a proper diet and don't starve yourself . I am just sharing as someone who went through extreme dieting last year .
I was dumb last year and I starved myself and that was when my stomach problems started to begin .
I did like extreme exercising which made me come to a conclusion that running is bad for your health , HA HA HA , it jiggles your internal organs I think . It disturbed mine , definitely !
Although I lost like almost 3 kg in 2 days , which is a good deal , it really took a toll on my health .
Conflict between slimming down quickly but unhealthily and slimming down slowly but healthily .
And it's not worth it , because it was just baby fats and now I still have the occasional stomach spasms . The stress of exams made things a lot worse .
Not worth not worth .
Should have taken a proper diet and exercised moderately (which I will ----soon)
